Liane Gentry Skye for Writers Gone Wild
It's summer time, and if you're a mom who writes, you understand what I mean without my having to wax poetic. When it comes to my time, kids win, hands down, every time. What's a writer to do? Give up sleep apparently.
My lack of sleep is showing in my mirror, too. Sometimes it's hard to write about nubile heroines chasing muscle bound lovers when all I want to do is put a paper bag over my own head and hide from the bad hair and woefully neglected complexion. Worse, my house runneth over with my daughter's friends who are all around eighteen, and by virtue of their age, effortlessly beautiful. Think cow patty in a field of violets. Yeah, the cow patty is me! :)
Maybe my urge to crawl deeper into said paper sack explaines the fact that my newest heroine in my work in progress feels anything but attractive. My heroine is an ex ballerina. Disfigured in an accident and barely able to tolerate human touch, she works nights as a wardrobe mistress for the Bolshoi Ballet. Firmly ensconced in a glittering world that once embraced her as a star, she now lurks about the shadows, invisible and forgotten. But the ex-ballerina in her still longs for the dance, so at night, when everyone else has left the building, my poor Desya takes to the empty stage to recall the lover who dances with her only in her memories. Little does she know someone is watching until one day, she finds a note on her sewing table. Dance for me again...
I know I'm taking a lot of risks with this book, the foremost being that my heroine is far from beautiful. I certainly don't intend to give her some miracle surgery to help her conform with the physical expectations of her world. In a lot of ways, Desya is a projection of how I'm feeling about my own appearance and ability to claim my own dreams right now.
Do your emotions impact the heroines you long to write or read about? And when those desires take you into the territory of a disfigured heroine, are you ever tempted to put the book down? This writer gone wild wants to know!